I'm done

I feel done with life. I'm a fuck up. I'm not going to make through school. I know Kate's going to want to be done with me soon. There's nothing I can accomplish. I had a chance yesterday. My friend had a gun. I felt the cold steel in my mouth. I told him not to tell Kate but he did. What the fuck. There's xanax and valium and beer. If It's here and they don't get back... I'm done. I don't care anymore. I'm useless. I'm not going anywhere with my life. And if I say something different it's a lie. Fuck this life. Fuck this planet. And fuck it all. Hopefully this will be my last post. So to the few readers I have had... Thanks. Kate I love you and always will. Joseph you've been a good friend thus far. I just can't do it anymore. It's been building up inside me. Fuck it all.